Less than a month to Moldova

I usually end up saying, "life is interesting." Well, I cannot resist writing it again, life is interesting. The devil is attacking me physically, mentally and emotionally. I am trying to recover from bronchitis and pneumonia. I have missed a lot of work at my new job. Working with children is not the best place for me, due to their germs. My immune system is not too strong. A little cold for someone else often means something more serious for me. The Lord gave me this job and I need this job. I am going to ask my boss about cutting to 30 hours per week, as opposed to 40. Hopefully that will help me some. I am just not sure what the Lord is doing in my life right now. I know that to be home would be best for me physically, but not possible financially. The devil wants me to believe that I am washed up, no good for service of any kind. It is not true and yet it weighs on me. I know the Lord is in control, yet it doesn't "feel" like it. I also know that feelings are not where we base our faith. God is faithful, even though I am unfaithful. God is the same yesterday, today and forever.

We will be leaving for Moldova in less than one month. What better way to attack me than physically. Being ill in a foreign country would not be fun, nor convenient. It would be "safer" to stay home and let Skip go by himself. However, I do not think that is what the Lord wants me to do. So, I have to step out in faith, trusting that the Lord will take care of me and my asthma in a foreign country. The devil wants to rob me of a blessing. I do not want to be robbed. I want to go. The Lord has provided the money to go and I will go, by God's grace. I must be feeling some better because my fighting spirit is arising. I am slowly gaining strength. Thank the Lord for that. This is more like a cathartic rambling session than a true blog, but that is where I am. Lord I give my life, my heart my all to you as best as I can. Use me for your glory. Help me to trust you in all that is happening in our lives with Skip's business, my job, our finances, our trip to Moldova. Thank you that You never change. Help me to cling to Your truth.